Fell..

"I fell, and managed to stand. Now I fall again, but I am too afraid to stand up, lest I will fall again. Just lEave me lying..."

Went to eat botak jones with Joel and his Friend, Shawn, at bedok. The fish & chips is yum and the Cajun chicken.. yum.. the chicken breast meat is as soft and juicy as thigh meat.. but was super full after eating... shld had just ordered the reg instead of large haha.... *Burps*

Good food, Price ok.. and best of all.. the Menu has jokes!! Haha... Quite alot.. but I jus include some short ones here.. for example, " What do u call a smart Blonde? A: a Golden Retriever!" Haha!! another one : "What's the difference between a new spouse and a dog? A: After a year, a dog is still excited to see you!" LOLX... and many more inside..

I was so full from the meal that I still didnt eat anything since 4pm++ I finished that meal.. so full sia.. I think I am losing my stomach size... been eating lesser... hmm no.. irregular appetite.. somethimes wan eat alot.. sometimes totally no appetite.. Haiz pregnancy? =x kidding. Haha...

Losing so many things lately... losing my mind... losing my money... ok not losing.. I m spending too much haha... losing confidence.. losing my fitness in my polo game.. etc.. and soon I'll be losing my hair!! And also,"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend." That "Friend" knows wat I'm talking abt.. and some other frens do know wat I'm talking abt. We totally lost contact with each other, no more smses, no more meeting to go out together, not even msn-ing each other. Used to be so close and talked alot.. now its like a unable to conceive lady's uterus. Empty. Barren. Pumpkin with no seeds. A desert land.

Seriously, where did I go wrong? Argh!! Frick, frick, frick on a stick and a 2 ton brick. I so hate the feeling of lost, especially the feeling of losing a special some1... Its excruciating... I thought I got over it... but who am I kidding.. deep down inside the pain will always be there.. the scar might had fully recover, but the pain that once dere will always be dere. Like guilt, u can never get rid of it watever u do....

Ok enough of another lengthy post.. Here is a song, so damn sad.. actually if u do a search, all his song are almost as sad... anyways.. this song is currently in 987 fm charts.. great sentimental song... Though this version on my post is so great to hear.. but I downloaded a better quality one =) Msn me if u want it...



Single, Available, Desperate - S.A.D.

-ShawnZ-