Bleeding Love

Yes!! FInishing my written report SOON!!! I resolve to complete it before Sunday, 23rd Dec 2007!! Now left conclusions and recommendations, and need add things to the Job description to account for the word count. Grgh...

Had a very bad bad day today. Very. 1st woke up w a tummy ache, serves me rite for gobbling down the free McSpicy dat came from the delivery order I made, due to them keep bringing wrong orders and 4getting orders. Ended w 2 free McSpicys after the hassle. 1 for my father and another for me. Anyway back to the bad day, Realised from Shiyong my whole project is wrong and in a mess, was so damn sad have to re do everything, but thnx to my sis for helping amend my whole report. TY JIE!!! =D

Clinic was so busy, I did recep work and no time to go find my data for my project. So busy that I think I committed some boo-boos ... luckily the vet on duty is a very nice lady =D U shld see de Xmas Pressy she gave me, A very cute Tigger-pictured plush handphone holder!! and a little pinky pig phone strap which I gave my sis haha...

Wanted to do some tan work, was hesitating between CLementi pool and Tamp, chose tamp, and since I am having a bad day, Clementi's sun was glaring and Tamp was having a downpour. Cancelled my tan works and went to the arcade. Wasted 2 tokens to find out both sets of controllers isn't functioning properly. Wasted another 2 token to just play a single game which would usually cost 1 token in a functioning game booth.

While on the train ride, my legs was going wobbly from the standing, my eyelids gaining pounds by the minute. For about 4 -5 times when someone alights and a seat become available, the seat was snatched right in front of me. Was so damn tired and pissed and rock music was beating into my ears, u can imagine how I almost want to grab and throw some1 off the seats. Haha, thnkfully i still have a teensy bit of sanity left...

Just as I was abt to leave, thought I could alight at tanah merah and walked home. But NO! Its raining; down pour! Alighted at Bedok to catch a bus, and guess wat, the rain stopped when I reached the bus interchange. Got my feet soaked by a very big puddle and went home w a irritated feeling and squeaky crocs.

Took a little nap at 8pm, waking up at 11pm instead. Waking up to wondering," oh shit!! I am late for work!! " and " Is dere work today" kind of feeling. I mus be stressed from my work.. but if my work ends means its time to submit my reports soon.. Argh!! I am so FAN(2)!!!

Anyways found dis song on 98.7, Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis, very emo song, but nice. Nice lyrics, nice music. I am really bleeding, but I dont know isit the physical bleeding I get from my hands that is painful, or the emotional bleed in my heart that is more hurting.

Damn suay, jus when I got tons of songs I want, multiply music search is down. Then plus I keep forgetting the bad events that happens, so irritating. Then when it happens again, theres the feeling of Deja Vu and its not supposed to happen if I had rem!!

I am feeling all cranked up and messed, is dis puberty? Haha. Cannot think properly, cannot remember things properly, the " I think I remembered I forgot sth" feeling.

Grgh, if only I can untangle this messed up feeling... If only.. I can... If only....

-Shawn-

Stain my Soul, Tattoo my Heart.

Currently addicted to a song, Tattoo by Jordin Sparks. Nice song, Emo Song, I like! haha... ok fine, Emo Boy I am. I love U once, I needed protection, U still a part of everything I do, U in my heart, just like a Tattoo.... so nice....

Anyways, these few days damn sucky. Dont know why I am such a Goon. Oversleeping past my stops very frequently these few days... always end up in Simei, Tamp... Den just ytd I slept to Tamp and wat the heck, I jus do some Xmas SHopping for my Colleagues.. ended up buying wrapping paper instead.. haha... Oh also met Ivan, wah liew he Damn tanned now.. so jealous.. I am becoming a fair white boy T_T sobssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...

Ytd, also did sth I nvr was prepared to do.. I CUT THE BALLS OF A CAT!!! Scientifically, I castrated a cat. SO damn nervous... Tho john was at the side teaching me wat to do, but I jus so damn nervous haha.. Loos so easy and fast when the other technician does it.. when I do it... so slooooooooooooooooooooooooowwww and shaky haha... Dont think anything went wrong.... or else the owner would had called to complain liao ahha.... omg...then john say, try book more cat castrations on Tues, or times where Dr Blum or Dr Megumi works.. so I will do the castrations... gosh!!

Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks on Sun nite w my two other Angels haha.. They call us Charlie's Angels at TAC. I AM CAMERON!! =x ANyways back to the topic.. the show was cute.. but the sequence is bad, keeps jumping and before u know it, it ended. Like the part where alvin was singing Dont Cha while bathing haha... Cos now I listening to Dont Cha.. reminded me how he sang it w his squeaky pitch, which ended w a cute little scream.

Ya gonna mug sth out today or tmr, Hopefully is my SIP written report.. and tmr hopefully can amend my project report, but Hey!! DONT BE SHY TO ASK ME OUT!!! PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS haha... do I sound very despo here? WELL I AMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM~~~

Dont Wanna Grow Up, I wanna GET OUT!!! TAKE, TAKE ME AWAY ~~~~ I wanna Shout Out~~~ TAKE ME AWAY AWAY AWAYYYYY~

I need a Life. A Life I had been Deprived off for a long time.
-Shawn-

Beneath the Stars,Under the Moonlight..

Its always the cold, dark times where ppl starts to think and ponder on words or thoughts or watever the shit that happens.....

Ya abt just, I pondered alot, abt my SIP/MP I m farking left w like 1 mth to do
1) SIP written report
2) Mp Project report
3)Mp logbook
4)MP poster presentation

1 week do 1? Ya like real.. like can finish.. wat have I been doing for the past 3 mths??? Well, 1stly, slacking, 2ndly hankering for sth thats isnt possible... ya fine Emo, watever u call it.

Oh and did I mention the SIP written report needs a brief intro of the company and dere is no farking source in the net that talks abt my company other den the location?? Yup I am doomed.


2nd thing I pondered, my dog got the runs. Jus returned from the vets. Found lots of bacteria and flagelettes(dont know the spelling) in his stools. Headache, money's depleting and alrdy so busy and now this. DAMN, all the bad things can fall on me on 1 week.

3rd thing, This Sunday is the Christmas party of my clinic and I havent got the pressy or the money. Yup, the rest U can tell.

4th thing that kicks all the Emo in.
Dont u find the 2 hardest thing to do is to Remember and to Forget when U want to?
Try remembering all the thigns u studied for a test or a qns. Nth much seems to come up to ur mind or head or ass, whichevers thats bigger up there.
Or try Forgetting a quarrel a painful relationship or even a thing U just wish to forget. Everything just keep staying in there and popping up randomly. Those bad memories, those grudges, those debts or even the bad looks of some1, its etched further in then the pretty girl or cute guy u see a few mins ago.

I am so Sick of Life. Of Everything. Of Anything.

-Shawn-

Wishy Washy

Bathe Vodka again today, better den last time. At least he doesnt run away this time.. maybe cos I used warm water =D But this wimp still afraid of de hair dryer.. haha.... Blah....

Went Vivo with Eddee and Gary... shopped and ended in Pet Safari.... haha... Saw a Shiba Inu, DAMN CUTE!! LIKE A FOX!! If I get another dog, it will be a Female Shiba Inu and I will name her, Vixen/Vixie aka Hu Li Jing. Den imagine my GF ask, U keeping a hu li jing at home rite!?!?! ANd Imagine I say Yes, she is very pretty haha =) Or can say, ya she is prolly slping on my bed now. HAHA!!!

Sorry ah no take pic of the Shiba Inu...

Ok la signing off... Oh did I 4get to mention I went ZoukOut w Eddee and Gary on Sat nite? :) Haha.... And Gary's mother make very delicious Fried Carrot Cake!! Yum =p

-Shawn-