Hmmm its been 3 mths since I came into OCS, tonight will be my 24km followed by my senior bar presentation... saw a feel famillar faces from poly and sec sch... joing in as new cadets... haiz didnt realise time passes so fast, yet so slow both AT THE SAME TIME. Ironic huh??
Hmmm had my PC interview today, accidentally saw LTA Shaiful letter to be posted out of ocs to unit.. was damn sad... why sia... when finally there is sth worth staying in golf wing for.. he is liek de best instructor anyone could have... patient, understanding, defending of his own cadets, like de 'cool' guy who knows everything and like perfect... wait a minute, I m not inlove with him for your info... i mean he is like a 'Perfect Dad' anyone cld ask for.. but now he is leaving??? Dont know how i wld be able to survive... haiz... :( damn sad... damn sad..
Speaking of dads.. haiz problems problems... I really am confused abt my life... I really cant even think coherently....
ok it started w my dad having a china gf, ok fine i get over that stage... but it turn out that they got married behind my back, shocking? yes, but still i close one eye... den now my father wans to pay for her daughter's studuies using my sis money?? WTH?!?!?! if she is willing to study, fine I dont mine forking with lots of pains... but yea i dont mind.. but now is SHE herself dont wanna help herself, wan go good sch, dont wanna take de test to see if she is good ebnuff to enter, she's 18 and wan go sec sch??? Dont wan go ITE, reason for dont want take de test is becos wan go hols.. frick that piece of shyt she go brain in her head mans... wat she thinking? We her servants isit?? She princess isit? BITCH!
Den cos my sis say my uncle seems to liek dislike us staying there... and now maybe wans to move out and rent a place on our own.... BUT my sis and I will chipin for the rent AND, that 2 china bitches will be staying with us??? wth!! I hate her daughter alrdy and I've nvr even met her!! Fricking steal away my dad's attention from me!!! GRGHHHHHHHHHHHH *#$)*&@##)#*#)&#&^*
yea... I think OCS is bad for my health.. ever since upon entering... problems keep popping out... dont know if I can take it any longer... plus now my dog, has abit of rashes/red spots popping out... so scared need bring to vets, cos I know skin prob cant be treated in such a short time and its damn exp to treat... argh!! !WHY!! Someone up dere seriously hates me... I think... and yup thru msn my sis says my dog is vomitting? God WHY GOD!!!!!
I am really mentally damn stress... frens, barely get to see them, de damn close ones, havent been seeing them since coming in ocs.. yea u will be thinking wta kind of close frens are these... and I really dont know how to ans.. family, part of the problems come from them... I GOT NO ONE ELSE LEFT TO TURN TO BUT TO BOTTLE IT OUT!! If only this blog is alive.. maybe can give me advice on my life since I have been spilling so much things to it... How I wish I can be trapped away in virtual reality and escape all these probs but then again I prolly will have new probs inside dere goi ng by how things are proceeding..
Had my interview w my sect instr who told me I am jus an avg joe in the wing and sinc eI m a reg, I shld be abv avg... I M SICK OF THIS ALRDY OK!!! IF I HAD KNOWN IT WLD BE SO MUCH HASSLE I WLDNT HAD SIGNED THAT FRICKING PAPER!!
PLS STOP PRESSURISING ME, STOP MENTALLY TORMENTING ME WITH ALL THESE PROBLEMS!!! AND PPL ASK ME WHY MY NICKS ALWAYS SO EMO.. tell me.. whats there NOT to be emo abt... zzz haiz
The birds has it easy, all they have to do is Fly away,
-ShawnZ-
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