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I know its damn wierd I posted 2 times in a day. Ya but, seriously mus let this out. I have enough. Jus return from my PC interview, seems like as expected, my plt doesn't like me.. haha... it seems I appear on way too many Btm fives. saying I m not a team player?? When I was from waterpolo TEAM??? Ah fak it. Wat makes me more pissed is ppl say I wayang in front of instructors and not doing things? All talk but no action. Frick it, I jus dont see de point in me doing things and banging pots and pans while doing it. Haiz, maybe its jus a series of wrong choices, maybe I shld had chose sispec? I dont know.

Its also super irritating to know that ppl who really are the ones who are slacking, but becos know how to fake things, can get pass this btm five thing, ok, this btm 5 is basically a peer appraisal fyi. Yea in other words, I FAILED my peer appraisal.

Really sick liao la, sick of such things,Ppl say i wayang, No PR, serious attitude problem, all talk but no action, selfish, dont help... aiya sian.. wat happened to me? I really dont know if its me dat has changed, or if ppl hasnt really see me in depth. Wat isit? Can some1 tell me? guide me? I'm really confused..... Its also not helping when instructors keep expecting more from me since I have signed on. Maybe I shldnt sign on after all.. Maybe even this post is a mistake. My life has been a mistake to begin with. Den again, maybe I m jus too overly sensitive? I doubt so.

Trapped in a Whirlpool of Mistakes and Confusions
-ShawnZ-