And woe woe woe woes...

Went town alone today.. sad I know.. but haiz wat to do when... ah 4get it. Anyways, went town, saw alot of Golf Wing Warriors, 1 is my CWC who didnt see me, 1 is another platoon's ex CPC and 2 others whom I dont know whcih platoon but recognise their faces.

Bought some of the required stuffs, and bought a bag of treat and a new toy for my dog. Nothing much really for myself.... Wanted to buy a pair of NUM slippers, but de colour I like don't have my size =( Maybe I shall try the one @ Citylink de nxt bookout which is this sat...

After that caught a movie, Tropic Thunder... starring Ben Stiller. The show was avg... though its a comedy.. but somehow I dont find it as funny as House Bunny. Or it could be just me.. cos the whole theatre was laughing like crazy. Shyt sia... I think the "Blues" is finally going to consume me, one day my world wld be "Black, White and Blue". I need some Colours man... back into me, back into my life. Everything just doesnt seem as lively as funny anymore.. I am feeling so way down that its killing me softly on the inside.. I wanna scream, I wanna cry, but the voices doesnt come out.

I am living my Life back in the olden days, Black and White silent movies... I think I m falling... apart... argh... ***** No vulgar.. I resolved to... jus like I did for sth else be4, but I failed.

Anyways, enough of my nagging and enjoy this supposedly funny video of Adolf Hitler's woes.



-ShawnZ-

MMS..

Argh.... dont u jus hate it when theres a time where u put so much consideration deciding before doing sth.. spent hella lot of time going thru if U shld do sth or not, and when u chose to do it. U regretted ur actions. De feeling spinning inside, its really uneasy. GRGH. De self torment where u go abt asking urself "Y de hell did I chose to do it when I know I shldnt had and will regret it in de 1st place."

Frick dat thought manz. Must be feelign all shitty becos stuck in camp unable to book out till tmr nite. Wth,

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Made a stupid resolution, finding it so hard, SOOOOOOOOOOOO hard.... to fulfil. I resolve to stop using vulgar, not even the word "Fuck". Tough eh? See, alrdy in de 2nd paragraph I couldn't help but use it.

I really hate every moment of this shitty feeling sia, I guess this is wat it means by MMS, Man Moody Sometimes. Or in simpler terms, Emo, Mo Mo Moooooooo... Yea I m getting crazy.

Just re-did one test which I failed. Others failed becos they couldnt complete de paper. I completed everything yet I still failed. Stupid, now I dont even know if I can pass or not....... Zzzzz

I need a time out, a break out, a let out wateva its called I jus wanna Standing on the rooftop letting U scream ur heart out! Standing on the rooftop.... haiz....

Argh I m having a headache rite now, not the painful kind but the irritated kind #$)*&#*(#$()@*$@#)&@#$&@#()$*@#)4893285^

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-ShawnZ-

Spiralling... Spiralling...

Been such a hectic week these few days... actually last week too... So many tests so many RUNS omg.... my leg is becoming Jelly... Thankfully I got a GOLD for the recent IPPT, no need do any RT during weekends.. phew.... I wanna rest sia... so tired... tml got another 8km run omg...
mentally physically tired sia...

Anyways... Though not having much income left after spending on foodstuffs, my MP3 charger and adapter which costs me like $45... -_- and de charger $20 and also this speaker... $40... chap pa lang brand but still... not bad... quite good and loud... anyways I was saying.. tho no much money left... I still wanna go out and spend Spend SPEND!!!! I WANNA GO OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watched House Bunny de other bookout, damn funny and wth a typical 'Blonde' movie. If u had watched legally blonde u're understand. To them the world is full of flowers, butterflies and everything nice and sweet, oh yea, pink too. Hate to say it, I like this type of movies =p haha Shit sound like a GIRL!!!

I also wanted to watch disaster movie... alrdy expired in theatres... =( VCD not out yet ARGH!!!! I WANNA WATCH THIS TYPE OF LAME STUPID COMEDIES!! =x I am a big fan and a sucker for comedies, jio me out for one anytime!!!

Gotta go check on my Laundry in the dryer, too doos~
P.S. Yea I m still in OCS, and yes they have washign machine and dryers here.

-ShawnZ-

To Follow or Not to Follow...

Stuck in the crossroad of decision... have to decide which step to take..

After ytd incident happen in camp, I realise my platoon's thinking and mine is very apart... Unlike in Cougar platoon 1 where everybody has almost de same mindset... how did Sgt Hari did it sia... he united our minds and sychronised our thinking...

U see, my current platoon, dont believe in standards, they jus wan fun... really very low discipline... when they get punish, they really unhappy.. and it seems that only i feel we deserve punishment... thru this incident, I have 2 choices, stand firm to my integrity and lose frenss make enemies... or.... if u cant beat them, join them, compromise my standard and integrity and join them.... frick.... how to decide... If only theres a way to make everybody really agreee to my thinking.. somehow..

Tmr is book out day... dont know what to do... I need a Life... I wana go shopping... =/ my hair's growing so slow >.<>

-ShawnZ-

Next Plane Home?

Yeah, this is a new song by Daniel Powter, not exactly new, but still its nice... Still in OCS... Somehow I feel much further from Singapore than in Tekong... somehow its harder to communicate w frens in here den in Tekong.. Cant contact them at all, either call no ans, sms no reply, and watever fucked shit. Somehow I feel a distance being formed, increasingly.. I hate this feeling, it sucks.

Today is the Family Visit day, ya my father will be coming, my sis (I think), and den invited some frens, some cancelled out, 1 said yes, but den I havent even mention anything else like, place/time to meet etc etc.. and I cant contact her @ all.. irritating la... and TODAY is the day Zzzzz -__- ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH fuck it, everything sux.

Anyways, yea still copign in OCS, got IPPT gold for the Categorisation test, everyday is so tiring, but I'll survive. Had my navigation course ytd and yup seen the Famous Peng Kang Hill, lucky jus went dere see, not go dere run up and down haha....

Cant wait for nxt book out, tho dont know what I'll be doing, who to go out with, argh so many movies I wanna watch!! "House bunny", "disaster movie", dont know still have or not, and almost all the comedies now showing!!! but so little time...

And finally, I miss my Dog, Vodka.. =(
-ShawnZ-