So dere it is, the end of Block Leave and will be the start of a new training. Not sure if I'm ready for all those physicals, mentals, all the early revellies, all the new turn outs and lets not forget all the water parades all over again. Tho it has only been a short 1 week plus break, but it sure soften my physicals and of course mentals. I m really so... hmm nua now.... I sure hope I can raise back my morale and fighting spirit be4 I land myself in trouble...
Looking back, on what I've done these past few days, no physicals, late lights out, late revellie and many more... I prolly suffer if I book in to camp with these. Thinking of 3 wks confinement and 3 mths hell, am I rdy? Its like a whole new extended BMTC all over again, the diff - I dont think they will ever go easy on us at ANY time. The feeling of fear starts to envelope me as I struggle to think for the better each time. I dont wanna give up, I wanna commision, I wanna do my family proud, I wan them to come to the parade, was what I thought everytime, but wld it keep me going on, or will there be 1 time I will "Shag, cannot think" ? I m seriously so worried..
With this struggle, to ensure that I will not reach the stage where dat thinking will not be able to keep me going on, I plan to bring my photos of my family in, but guess wat?? I dont have any recent photos of my family together, is dis the mark of the start of a family slowly tearing apart?
Come to thiink of it, the last time we ever sat down tgt to eat and talk as a family.. was prolly the 2 am supper which I strongly requested one time a few weeks ago? which of course they did complain on the time, but do they see de meaning of me wanting to do it? Heaven knows.
Now I jus wanna print out some older photos, and the damn faking printer have to run out of ink now, wtf? Is dis on purpose or is dis an omen. Grgh I need to get rid of all this superstitions be4 booking in..... -_-
This blog shall cease new posting for the next 3 wks. SOrry for the inconvenience caused.
-ShawnZ-
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
POP pics
As I promised,
Getting ready for the BMTC war cry
Cougar Platoon 1!!
The Private...
The Private and his Dad
The two guys who is always Smiling :) Matthew and Me!!
Getting ready for the BMTC war cryCougar Platoon 1!!The Private...The Private and his DadThe two guys who is always Smiling :) Matthew and Me!!Melayu Gang!! From Left: Abdillah, Firdaus and Hafiz
Henry, Joel and Me
My Platoon Sergeant/Section commander 2SG Hari and Me
Brian the Platoon 2nd Best!
My Buddy, Gabrwyn
Cocksters!!
My platoon commander 2LT Anshul
COugar Plt 1 Sect 1!!
Dont U jus realise, our 2SG Hari always show the same serious face in all pics? Haha..
Clockwise: Joe, Matthew, Me
Benjamin Siao On and Me!!
Ok 2 cockster face, Joseph and Me haha, Man Of Valour!! =x
Ok thats all for pics,
-ShawnZ-
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Merry POPpins~
POP lo~ Finally Passed out from BMTC, Proud to pass out as a Cougar warr!! Best of all Platoon 1!! Yea!! Tho not the platoon best, but a 3rd in platoon is better den nth =D Ok abit show off here.. =x
A mixed feeling before the parade, can feel the joy, excitement, fear of making the contigent look bad, the anxiety and of course there is a tinge of sadness... I am gonna miss the my platoon mates =( and nevertheless, the SGTS and Officers!! Of course I'll miss the platoon 1 commanders, however surprisingly I will miss SGT Eric of Platoon 2 too, tho we hardly ever sat down as much as our sect comm to chat, and everytime he talks to me, he wld pull my ears at least once, or get some1 to pull it for him... haha...
I still rem when we 1st enter BMTC, so vividly, all the blur cocks navigating around like country bumpkins, and also the "kind " commanders. However as time passes, the mask starts to peel off and we see the Faces of the commanders. I still rem at one period of time we were suffering under SGT Hari's training and we told our PC abt it as a whole. ANd his reply was, " U can complain abt SGT Hari now, but when POP u will realise how much he is helping u. IN fact previous batches always votes for him as the Best Commander." Right after was our strong objections and protests. And then ironically, unknowingly, 2 days ago when we were suppose to write down who we felt was the best commander, and obviously, SGT Hari won with a landslide.
Its so strange how a mere 9 weeks can change one's thinking so much, one's fitness and many more. Thinking abt all the things that happen, the tough ttraining, the happy moments, the shag moments, and while marching I saw my father at the grand stand, I almost couldn't hold back my tears of pride and joy. I could feel the tears about to force its way out of my eye sockets when the RO was rambling abt her speech. Then when our parents came down to put on the jockey caps for us, I feel a sudden burst of Pride, so much that, I am looking so foward to the BMTC War CRy and was shouting it with the top of my lungs, thats how proud I was!!
Soon after was picture time!! (Pictures will be uploaded shortly)
and then was departure. Gonna go out drinking with the platoon (well almost, some will not be joining) and hopefully the SGTs. Talk Cock Session!! Updates soon!!
-ShawnZ-
A mixed feeling before the parade, can feel the joy, excitement, fear of making the contigent look bad, the anxiety and of course there is a tinge of sadness... I am gonna miss the my platoon mates =( and nevertheless, the SGTS and Officers!! Of course I'll miss the platoon 1 commanders, however surprisingly I will miss SGT Eric of Platoon 2 too, tho we hardly ever sat down as much as our sect comm to chat, and everytime he talks to me, he wld pull my ears at least once, or get some1 to pull it for him... haha...
I still rem when we 1st enter BMTC, so vividly, all the blur cocks navigating around like country bumpkins, and also the "kind " commanders. However as time passes, the mask starts to peel off and we see the Faces of the commanders. I still rem at one period of time we were suffering under SGT Hari's training and we told our PC abt it as a whole. ANd his reply was, " U can complain abt SGT Hari now, but when POP u will realise how much he is helping u. IN fact previous batches always votes for him as the Best Commander." Right after was our strong objections and protests. And then ironically, unknowingly, 2 days ago when we were suppose to write down who we felt was the best commander, and obviously, SGT Hari won with a landslide.
Its so strange how a mere 9 weeks can change one's thinking so much, one's fitness and many more. Thinking abt all the things that happen, the tough ttraining, the happy moments, the shag moments, and while marching I saw my father at the grand stand, I almost couldn't hold back my tears of pride and joy. I could feel the tears about to force its way out of my eye sockets when the RO was rambling abt her speech. Then when our parents came down to put on the jockey caps for us, I feel a sudden burst of Pride, so much that, I am looking so foward to the BMTC War CRy and was shouting it with the top of my lungs, thats how proud I was!!
Soon after was picture time!! (Pictures will be uploaded shortly)
and then was departure. Gonna go out drinking with the platoon (well almost, some will not be joining) and hopefully the SGTs. Talk Cock Session!! Updates soon!!
-ShawnZ-
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