So Sick...

I am so tired of everything, Life is just so tiring, nvr in my whole life have I ever felt so depressed and tired. Not even after losing a waterpolo game, not even after a waterpolo training. Prolly everything jus come up at one time and I really can't handle it.

Yah, something happened during my Waterpolo chalet, Dont wish to say it out here, just make everybody look bad. Just 1 thing to say, Abandoned Ship. Some would understand, some wouldn't, so just leave it as that. Somehow I wonders if I could be seen through. Maybe I am really Invisible Man like Susan Sue.

Then today, I haven been denied of another task i usually do, by Dr GN cos she says she doesn't want to have a surprise if I do it, how would I suppose to know that the dog is on heat THROUGH THE PHONE! The owner did not say her dog's on heat la... So ya, became my fault and she now deny me to book surgery appts. All the better I hate booking anyways.

And lots of unlucky things and unreasonable things happens arnd her.. and now I am so at risk of passing my sip... I m so stressed by my sip dat my mp is so minor in my whole heart..

If U don't like me to do anything, u might as well let me go home and discontinue my SIP, jus ask them to put in my report dat I've done my sip. U think I m so dying to work dere? Its so strange that I was so excited to be working in an animal clinic initially, u can ask my frens, I was jumping so crazily for joy when I noe I was going to the animal clinic.. and yet now I cant wait to leave... Life is so full of mysteries..

As mentioned in my last post, sorry if I had been impulsive and offended anyone along de way, not expecting anyone to 4gif me jus becos of this excuse. I dont deserve anything anyways.

~Invisible by Taylor Swift~

I'm sorry, I am really Detesting my Life and Will every second I m living. I hate myself for not being the Mr Perfect in everyone's Eyes. I hate myself for not even being the Mr Perfect in my own Eyes. I hate myself for not being able to work to be the Mr Perfect.

I m so unsuccessful in Everything I do, Everything I try to do, Everything I plan to do. Worst, sometimes I implicate ppl into things I do, My parents marriage, My grandfather, now my colleague got scolded. No wonder my team nvr did win any competition.

Let me Ctrl+Alt+Del - "End Process" my Life away pls...
-Shawn-