Smashing the Bottle.

SIP finally over ytd, went for trainign dis morning. Not as tough, as fast as I used to be. Defnitely not as tanned. But at least I think I got part of my tan back today :)

Was very hungry and tired after training. Or shld I say halfway through training. Ate alot for lunch in Design School canteen. Really missed the school's food :( Sigh...

As usual I was too lazy to do anything of my project today, probably tmr, de day after, and de day after. NO!! I must proscrastinate no longer!!! I have to do sth soon!!

Sigh, sometimes I feel like a stepping stone to sth else. Either that or I am a vase that holds the flowers and people will notice the flowers instead of the vase. Damn this boring nights, always leave me Emo. GRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mr Senstitive. Mr Emo. Call me watever U want. I am doing too much to unconceal, to go into the spot light. But it always backfires. Badly. All I achieve is more chidings. YES, I AM A SUCKER FOR COMPLIMENT!! Well who isn't? Ya I noe u always receive compliments, so u nvr know the feeling of having none. And yea, u're always getting the lights on u, so how would u noe how it feels behind the scenes?

SIP = Sucking-up Important People
Learn to bootlick the right people at the right place and time and you get full marks for everything even if U're lousy or disliked by every other people there.

Sorry, just thrashing around. Had been wanting to say this out a long time.

-Shawn-

Finally...

Tmr.. will be my last day of SIP, days of torture, torment, stress and of course I did have fun, its all over. Or will it not?

I read/peeped the appraisal form which I shldnt had read/peeped. and WTF, so pissed off by the appraisal, doing me injustice... damn it... Dont know why i still bother to buy sth for them, I shld jus picked up that dead rat that I saw lying by the road and give it to them.

And DAMN this Headache that I am having now!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! Maybe its trying to tell me about my soon-to-due project and I havent complete it yet. Nor have I even buy the logbook which I was suppose to also submit with my project report.
Enjoy this song.. 1 of my favs... =)

-Shawn-

Pissed.

Yup, I noe its not the end of the day and yet I can feel pissed. Just went to Bright Hill Park, to pay respect to my deceased grandfather for his 100th day since he passed away. Yup, as usual my relatives would be there, thought they would pin point my new ear studs, but no. They are STILL pointing my dog. Saying I shld give away cos I cant spend time w my dog. Oh Pls, in dis society hu can stay 24/7 at home?? Then my aunt say I rely on my 3rd uncle to look after, discipline my dog. I DIDNT ASK FOR HIM TO DO THAT! IN FACT I DIDNT LIKE HIS METHODS!!! I want to feed my dog twice a day and yet he shove in a 3rd meal in the middle of the day tho I had SPECIFICALLY told him not to be4.

Then I have my own disciplinary method to use, and he had to intefere, how am I suppose to tell my 3rd uncle off?? Zzzzzzzzz

I DONT NEED U TO TEACH ME HOW TO LOOK AFTER MY DOG!! I DONT NEED U TO TEACH ME HOW TO DISCIPLINE MY DOG!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ No one asked for ur comment either!! (To my Aunt)

So pissed, and she ASKED me to give my dog away, FUCK U BIATCH!!! Sorry For the vulgar, I hate ppl hu asked me to gif my dog away.

Then, my earphone, the oen that came with my phone, so far I havent use it even once and my father took it away from me tho I told him I wanted to use. He insist I have my mp3 and doesn't want to return it to me. Den now, when i ask for it, he tells me one side might be spoilt. Very pissed la, not even once I used and I cant throw my temper because he is my father and I wasnt very heard in the family either. Tho during lunch I told him to get it fixed/get a new one, I m still nto sure if he would do it. Well, its not wrong for me to ask him to do this, since I PAID FOR DE DAMN FREAKING PHONE!! AND THE EARPHONE IS MINE RIGHTFULLY AND HE TOOK IT W/O MY PERMISSION!!! Damn it la. Y cant I jus tell all these freaking adults off w/o suffering any consequences. Grgh!!

-Shawn-

Testing, Testing 1 2 3

k wasting this post to test if I can embed music or not... Pls leave msg in the tagbox if u could or could not hear this song I embedded....

Yes, Like the song suggests, I m feeling Miserable.

-Shawn-

Love is in the Air, But I m on Earth.

I m so bored~~ Maybe I shld had gone town for a walk just now and to look look haha... 7 more days to the end of SIP and about 14 days or so to my End. I havent complete my Major project! and I am so lazy to! haha.. omg.... Well at least I completed my SIP report... =D

Thanks to "passerby" for reading my blog =) It would be good if u erm.. introduce urself more? Haha.. and also thanks everyone who reads my posts =D

Can't seem to embed songs to my posts.. oh well... too bad for me then..

Haiz....

-Shawn-

Took my NS medical check up ytd, sent to Pest A =( Grade A pest like a cockroach... haha.. ya not funny..

Anyways, I finally found the title of this song!! So nice!! Heard it twice! 1 from Charlie's Angels the other time from erm lets see... I think is.. Blonde Ambition. Quite a nice show and a little bit similar to Legally Blonde.. but the Blonde gets much smarter in Blonde Ambition.. hahaha...

ENjoy this video!!


-Shawn-

So Sick...

I am so tired of everything, Life is just so tiring, nvr in my whole life have I ever felt so depressed and tired. Not even after losing a waterpolo game, not even after a waterpolo training. Prolly everything jus come up at one time and I really can't handle it.

Yah, something happened during my Waterpolo chalet, Dont wish to say it out here, just make everybody look bad. Just 1 thing to say, Abandoned Ship. Some would understand, some wouldn't, so just leave it as that. Somehow I wonders if I could be seen through. Maybe I am really Invisible Man like Susan Sue.

Then today, I haven been denied of another task i usually do, by Dr GN cos she says she doesn't want to have a surprise if I do it, how would I suppose to know that the dog is on heat THROUGH THE PHONE! The owner did not say her dog's on heat la... So ya, became my fault and she now deny me to book surgery appts. All the better I hate booking anyways.

And lots of unlucky things and unreasonable things happens arnd her.. and now I am so at risk of passing my sip... I m so stressed by my sip dat my mp is so minor in my whole heart..

If U don't like me to do anything, u might as well let me go home and discontinue my SIP, jus ask them to put in my report dat I've done my sip. U think I m so dying to work dere? Its so strange that I was so excited to be working in an animal clinic initially, u can ask my frens, I was jumping so crazily for joy when I noe I was going to the animal clinic.. and yet now I cant wait to leave... Life is so full of mysteries..

As mentioned in my last post, sorry if I had been impulsive and offended anyone along de way, not expecting anyone to 4gif me jus becos of this excuse. I dont deserve anything anyways.

~Invisible by Taylor Swift~

I'm sorry, I am really Detesting my Life and Will every second I m living. I hate myself for not being the Mr Perfect in everyone's Eyes. I hate myself for not even being the Mr Perfect in my own Eyes. I hate myself for not being able to work to be the Mr Perfect.

I m so unsuccessful in Everything I do, Everything I try to do, Everything I plan to do. Worst, sometimes I implicate ppl into things I do, My parents marriage, My grandfather, now my colleague got scolded. No wonder my team nvr did win any competition.

Let me Ctrl+Alt+Del - "End Process" my Life away pls...
-Shawn-

My Realisation..

My impulsiveness always gets the better of me, I apologise to all those who gotten implicated by it in the past, present and prolly in future. I always make rash statements, rude comments, offensive language or stupid actions either in forms of sms, msn, by mouth, or even through my blog's posts for that matter. Sincerely apologise to every1 for this and to thank u guys for tolerating my "Bitchness" and also my "emo-ness" whenever I am angry, fustrated or sad.

I will try to do something abt it. I hope.

This impulsiveness of mine brought me nothing but trouble and more trouble. Awarding me with mindless quarrels and senseless bickering with my friends and family. This impatience oso cost me to lose something which I thought I had finally gotten it.

I would had thought after losing some1 close to me because of this I would have learned, but I didn't, Maybe I deserve to lose everything; everyone.

I couldnt be de "New Me" I resolved to be. I m useless. 我是犯贱.





-Shawn-