Fools..

Hmm good to have my ulcers healing.. doesn't feel de pain dat much anymore... when doing things.. well.. about time!!.. Or could it be so used to pain dat it had been numbed? Like adaptation? Nah.. couldn't be... We r Fools, always getting hurt de same way, we'll nvr Smartern up.

Sometimes its an obvious traps yet we walk right into it. Sometimes we had been hurt de same way be4, yet we still foolishly fall for it. Sometimes we eat sth dat cause us diahrrea yet we still eat it. Aren't we just foolish and stupid? Or isit we jus giving each other another chance? Den in de end, we suffer de Same Pain as bee4 and start scolding ourselves y r we so stupid, and swore not to let it happen again. Den guess wad? It happen again after some time. Aren't we just asking for it? Or do we deserve pity?

Nah..We're Foolish. Blinded by our Eagerness and Rashness. Blinded by our Desires and Impatience. Blinded by our Desperate-ness and our Weaknesses. All these and more contribute to what make us so Stupid and Foolish. Oh but a minority oso becos of Pressure. External, Internal, but its mostly the others that develops the Pressure.

K Signing off this Emo post.

Living Life Like Lies, and it Sucks.
-Seraphi aka Shawn-

Ooo Cute Funny pictures haha

Funny menu haha

Ya.. hu's the spy ah haha... damn cute la the pomeranian!! I like!!

Haha cheater!!!

Tuesday Blues

Its such a Blue Blue day... de sky is blue.. and me too =/

1stly is de slight sore throat I haven been having since ytd.. and I've thought i would have fever todya due to some symptoms i alwys have be4 a fever.. so glad dun have.. but I nvr go training ytd...
Den tio caught by alvin poh to go nafa.. wth lo.. He ownself say sports club/ sports cca ppl dun need.. den in de end he say wad.. only ATHELETIC sports like dragonboat dun need... wth!!?!?! Waterpolo not atheletic meh!! If its isn;t becos I cfm fail pull up or I sure shoot back him lo. Wad a unreasonable remark. Den still say wad waterpolo only noe how swim, nth to do w nafa things... )#&@(#)@*$)*)# him la! Curse u Eyes swell like goldfish la! haha !!

Den today I spent one morning to study LAST de quiz on topic 3 (came out on term test be4 den she still wan test), Den suddenly Cornie sms say she postpone... WTF!!! MY MORNING WASTD ON IT LO!! and somemoe i sure 4get bynxt week.. zzzz say! den de tut quiz 1 on de monkeys I haven study ~_~

Den jus now went down buy dinner.. some ppl want play pranks on face.. stand at de 1st floor staircase dere .. dne when i walk out a baskteball flew to my face.. FAK!! AND MY NOSE WAS ALRDY HEALING FROM DE MATCH WITH RP den kena whack again zzz...But aiya.. he said sorry.. somemore wad can I do.. grab him by de collar meh.. he liek sec sch boy.. but hor.. he liek dis very dangerous la.. wad if its a senior citizen... zzz... den I still can hear him shout hit wrong person alrdy... den still go back camp dere for his fren... wtf la.. no sense of remorse 1..

Hmm dis song on 98.7.. this is my now - Jordin Sparks.. nice sia!! I like !! THIS IS MY NOW!! AND I AM BREATHING IN THE MOMENT!!

Oh ya be4 I 4get.. ytd got a scary encounter, I saw Jacinth. No la.. haha j.k ...
Is I went down buy supper, porridge.. den when I want take lift dat time.. My house got 3 lifts, A B and C la.. I took de B lift.. when de lift B door closing I heard de Lift C door opening.. den when de door finally totally close Suddenly a man press de lift buttton try to open de door of my lift.. I mean.. Lift C alrdy opening, y he muz take same lift as me?? Or else is.. if he jus come out of Lift C, and he really 4got sth.. y he need to change to Lift B to go back up?? So when I reach my storey liao i purposely press de lift button to go up somemore.. later he go see what storey alight sia.. With the inc in crimes in Singapore.. somemore lift robbery.. I cun help but feel scared... + he is a non chi... ok I m bias racist and prejudiced haha.. but true wad.. since young ur mother keep say Ah girl/boy ah.. when go out dun talk to strangers ah.. especially the Ah Nehs with big big moustache ah.. later they take u away go sell to other countries ah! Haha.. so ya... lolx...

Hmmm So sian.. later eed go study de tut quiz le.. den tml oso got csas 4 letter writing test.. heng can bring de model ans in to 'reference' no need study ^^V den sian thurs got Mock NAFA test and Fri got Bpharm tut and normal quiz.. wth la.. zzzzzzzzzzz bpharm.. damn scared la... zzzz

K Signing off

Living Life Like Lies
-Seraphi aka Shawn-

Sunday no more?

Jus another boring Sunday, Father just left. Most probably to mee Da Bitch for sth. Yup means I have to pay for my meals and means he still have money to spend. Yet he is doing nth about my outstanding sch fees due-ing on 10th july. Maybe I should had told him its dued on 5th July be4 he would do sth abt it huh? AnyHOW, haha, whole day liek wasting time away.. watch Heroes parody on youtube again, den went to try memo BPHARM things, dun wanna fail again u noe.. and I think sth went in... hopefully haha.. While listening to 98.7.. is today Acoustic Day? It seems to be playing alot of acoustic songs....

Just now bought 3 pairs of ankle length socks, now feel like buying shoes but de sky is so dark, as dark as my heart. Isn't it supposed to be Sun-day?? So I have to coped at home, for awhile.. or brave de storm to go out buy them. Oh did I mention I haven taken lunch? Cos had my breakfast at 11++ so quite full now... Maybe nxt meal will be dinner, thinking of eating chicken rice... hmmm...

Yahoo my grandfatehr going back tonite! means tonite i can study my AHDIS in peace~ while watching shows dat is~ haha... yes I mus buck up alrdy lo.. my socks is really becoming ankle length, tiem to pull them up to become suspenders =D

See this weather... Kind of remind me of the song Under my Umbrella Ella Ella Eh Eh ... And do u all noe, a lousy song liek dis can be in 4th place in singapore charts and 1st in UK??? OMG.... Her Unfaithful was way much better den her Umbrella la!!

Wah lao sian la.. my mouth de ulcers damn pain la.. yawn pain,eat pain,drink pain, swallow saliva oso pain, talk oso pain grgh!!! Stupid RP ppl gif to me 1!! And ya, we lost the match to NYP too.. dun wish to talk abt de school... jialat jialat haha...

Hmm cun think of anything to blog now, so I shall blog again when I think of wad to blog haha..
Ta Da~

Living Life Like Lies
-Seraphi aka Shawn-

Cherishing...

Haiz... Seeing how things turning from bad to worse, cun help but think, how we nvr cherish wad we had and instead took it for granted. No worries, no one died, haha. Its just, how we got so used to some things, and starts abusing them, and when they changed, we resent them.

Ok honestly, I think de team is falling apart. Wad would de freshly constructed bricks thinks when they see de foundation/pillars are falling apart? Would they still be happily stuck to one another or would they start worrying if de house would fall. Yes de Team situation is currently like de house, and de rest should be self explainatory with the aid of de previous post. However it seems not only 1 pillar is coming out. A 2nd one is coming out, somemore dis pillar holds a greater position in supporting de house. He was de one hu defended for us to prevent some1 from sealing this house. He was de one hu represented de bricks pillars and even de vermins in de house to stop de sealing. But now, he seems to one to be driving de bulldozer. It all happens becos of emotions dat is hard to grasp or control. Yes, dere r times I cun even control my own emotions, but I try, I did, really.

It seems it all happens due to some misunderstanding of de pillar with de Contractor of de house. When de Contractor always was good to us, we took him for granted and complained how he treated us too softly and making us not able to withstand de Rain,Shine and Wind. But when he suddenly become rough w us, we blame him for being rude and every little things whenever he brings up his small temper was brought up and sentenced against him. Haiz and worst of all, we might be changing our Contractor soon. Its bad enough to not win any Prizes for him be4 he leaves, but we left him a mess in de rooms be4 he leaves. Oh of course, there are always some shaky pillars here and dere haha, some might topple while some maybe could stay dere shakily till it is renovated again... haha

Hopefully de future pillars for de house would be firmly stably constructed to support de house and win Shows with it. Even if it means changing to de new plans of de new Contractors.

But in all, I sure wish we could go back to the times when we were so united standing together preventing the house from being sealed... If only it could be done... Remember, its not how beautiful de inside of a house only that wins de Show, its our stable its supports are, no matter how beautiful inside is, if de supports fall, de house collapse too. However even if de inside is not beautiful and doesn't win any prize, its still a house dat can housed living things inside =)

Sorry for typing this Emo posts and maybe hard to understand for some of U. Because u dun exactly noe wad happen, but U can use it as analogy of wad u're going thru too, and think abt it.

Cherish wad U have be4 its gone. I m sad I failed to do so.

Living Life Like Lies
-Seraphi aka Shawn-

Ouchie Ouchie Smack Smack,I m having a Pain atk!

Ow ow ow, today match against NP, 15-1 I scored de 1 =D haha... but i got alot of 'souveniers' on de way. Ulcer and nose pain. While defending dis guy, kena hit on de nose and slightly on de lips. Den de 2nd one is damn funny, when de person wan shoot de ball, he slapped me 1st -.- den shoot de ball. Den de 2nd injjury haha!! Pengs.. den got once another player, wna swim off he kicked my chest.. ouchie ouchie!! Den oso got scratched ... aiya but this is Waterpolo =D like my blog pic, love an animal, hug a waterpolo player haha =D

But haiz.. de worst pain is not de physical one.. is de one in de heart. I was just trying to do wad I shld do as a point player, correct player's current mistake.. den when i tell dis guy, he very ap ans me sth not relavant, so i say dun gif excuse, den he jumped out de pool liao, nvr cont de rest of de quarters. Den he gif dat kind of ap face de whole time, and den when go home we hmm cannot say talked, on msn. Den he gif me a list of ap sentences, even when I m trying to express my point. WTH... den tell others say he told them he wan quit ah, dun wna play de last match or even go for tml training. I m so tired.. so tired.. as a point player, i always have to shout wad to do, but I shout everyone listens, no one does anything. K some ppl do... den I myself oso tired from shouting. I m so tired le la... And its sad how a small little tiff can cause a frenship to end. But its all becos both dun wish to gif in, both are proud so ya.. we deserve it. And honestly, I m still stubborn abt it, and dun wish to gif in haha..

Thankfully, de day is not full of sad depressing things, also happy times, in school =D haha.. 1st is csas gto 30/40 woots! den 2nd, I passed LAST haha!! but dunno how much...
and of course de 1 or 2 hours be4 bpharm with my frens outside lt5 =D Shiela brought her laptop and shirleen and I and Jaslynn, and after dat Jacinth came in, talking about and looking at other ppl's frenster profile for Yandaos =D haha and YEA I m interested!! haha.. den we oso talk abt chiobus... and ren yao.. haha... Den we 'judged' each other's taste of cute or handsome guys lolx!!! so funny la haha... den oso talk abt dis 17-yo girl, hl frenster got 1k+ frens, den even recorded of her crying when bf break up w her .. Duhs... den Heard my fren say she say be4 she wan be popular, and popular to her is, ugly ppl asking her to be their gf or have sex w them. *rolls eyes* wad a sl*t haha Shld be obvious hu she is rite, another hint, her bf(currently) took part in one of the 'Superstar' shows =p

Damn sad la, dis fri my last match le... most prob, cos going sip, even if can go for training, but cannot enter comp... like nus invitational or open league.. cos timing i dun think is ok.. cos sip clinics/hospitals always sound like until 9pm de lo =( haiz.. how to train or even go comp haiz haiz... Den now after dis match, de team has to cope harder le, with less seniors, cos Joel and me wun be joining, den ppl quitting, and now they mus retrain w the yr 1. Well good luck =) de yr 1 dis yr seems to have alot of potential haha =D Go GO GO!!!

so ya... tired le la.. emo.. wadeva.. I am easily afected by words 1 haha...den now listrening to a nice emo song, 4 in the morning.. so match my mood la!

Den sth so funny, haha some1 call 'Johnny' called in to chat w de dj.. omng he sounds liek a more ah beng ver of PCK.. english damn bad, keep saying shit ah, wah lao, den sound quite rude oso.. den was talking abt dis movie i think de zombie sheep 1 if i not wrong title is black sheep.. den he say nowadays movie sux, keep got alot of strange concepts den de dj jokingly say if one day got a show hamster eat man, will he watch? den he was very rude on his ans. I pei fu de dj so tactful, use a joke to rebute back... *pei fu pei fu* If only I can talk like de dj, maybe no conflicts would happen huh? haha

ok Signing off,

Living Life Like Lies
-Seraphi aka Shawn-

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna!!

Hmm was watching ant bully just now, while killing the ants most probably taking crumbs and the 'dried up' sweet drinks while watching. Irony I noe, but this ants do gets nasty when they climb on u. De itch, den de painful bites Erks. Well one thing does make a impact to me. One sentence dat is. Small we might be, but together we make a difference. Ya ya, propaganda u hear during or around national day.. but its true.. its oso applied in team games too, hopefully it can apply to us tml.. de match against NP.. or on friday against NYP.. I really do hope to win =(

My sister went to my Auntie house, de Auntie not my blood related family la, she looked after me like a nanny when I was young. Should had gone, but at 1st got waterpolo match, last min cancel de.. den go later no food for me =( She is a SUPERB cook lo.. love her cooking yum yum, sure regret those days when I can enjoy her food but I did not haha.. still rem she told me she had to 'tiak' my ear be4 I would eat haha.. wad a cute notti boy i was =x still am tho.. omg bhb.. =D *quickly stuff under shirt*

Hmm tml gettint LAST and CSAS4 term test, LAST 70% cohort fail.. wow scary.. hope not me.. alrdy failed bpharm liao.. den csas i cun see it for myself, cos going comp. stupid ergh!

Am listening to 98.7 listen for nice song to dl =p and Avril de When you're gone so nice sia, so ya I dl-ed le haha But some songs not ncie to me, still keep repeating so sian.. but got nice songs keep repeating I like haha, like 4 in the morning- gwen stefani and big girls don't cry - Fergie ..
Ya big girls don't cry, but big guys do =/ Emo emo~ haha..

Ya 4got report mon's match, we lost 14-4 to RP, yes we sux, our only win-able match and we blew it. And worst, one guy scold me 'Damn stupid'. Dunno he say it cos its true or isit becos I make him until he pek cek. But de 2nd option seems more probable becos he was like venting it out den laughing it out. Hope its de 2nd one, cos it jus mean I am too good for him =D haha! But I 4gave him, cos he is CUTE!! Haha!! Oops de gayness showing! *Quickly stuff under shirt* haha...

I wan to change my image leh, so now I m cutting down my eating and save up money buy new things, 1st is target my shoes. Den can be like a peacock and attract others mua hahaha!! Hurray to Animal Kingdom!! haha... Saw dis 19.90 sneaker-like shoes, white one like not bad, if thigns goes well I maybe can buy it this or nxt week. Den after de shoes is the clothes, time to shop for new cheap clothes! Lelong lelong! or u all got old clothes wan gif me? =D haha I karang guni man sia!! Oh ya, hopefully nxt tues can go my auntie house =D cos sometimes she gif me her son's clothes haha Quite exp ones ok.. branded to hor... haha shit kiasu spirit! *Quickly stuff under shirt* =D

Sometimes right when u hear some songs, it tends to remind u of de person hu sent them to u, den u kind of like erm.. u will think of them whenever u hear the song that they sent u.. its like hmm.. over-sentimental?? haha.. cos jus heard a song from 98.7 and reminded me of de person hu sent it to me.. hmm... Shit emo!! *Quickly stuff under shirt*

Hmm walked into kitchen, see my ftaher chatting with his 'gf' *rolls eyes* grgh... wth.. fine maybe i jealous or wadeva, but I jus cun stand de bitch. Ever since she w my father, I have to pay for my meals on sat and sun and hmm well, monetarily my father stops paying or buying things which he used to. Like now my fees still got outstanding 116.50 and most prob a 15 late fee, and my father is like not doing anythign abt it. He alrdy got de CPF to subsidised always de thousand heads le.. if by 10 july he still dun pay, den its BB to TP.

Watching harry potter w my frens on 15th july most prob, I rem dat day got sth on, but I jus cun rem wad isit... hmmm.... think think think... argh wad isit!! haha... or could it be I duo xin le? hmm

ok de post going quite long le, if i type somemore dunno if ppl will still read.. haha... so I think I better stop and go back enjoy my 98.7 liao... Ta Da~

Living Life Like Lies
-Seraphi aka Shawn-