I huff and puff and I break my own house down.

I lost my mother when I was young, now I half lost my father and soon I gonna lose my sister. Nope, not to terminal illness. But to minor stupid things. We quarrelled, she slapped me on the arms and I slapped back on the calf. Apparently the doctor said she was PUNCHED. Wow I didnt know I had so much power in my palm! And den now I am trying to set things properly before going to Brunei. Guess wat, my own sister, the one who shared the same blood, genes as me, held up a feather duster, pointing at me, saying she's afraid of me? WTH? As if I m a lunatic?! Like I go around beating ppl up?!?!?! Wth...

Ok fine maybe I am not exactly totally up to the idea of apologising, cos somewhere deep down in my heart I still feel I am not totally in the wrong. She touched my stuffs w/o asking me 1st, when I ask abt it, she dont give a shit, she is not apologetic at all, and she feels that she is the only one who is tired in the whole wide world. Yea, I really felt this way, and guess wat, yes I resent the fact that i am eating humble pie to set things str8 and she not only dont accept my apology, she still thinks she is in the right. Ok yea I hate this attitude of hers, thinking she is always right, well, it runs in the genes.

Its super irritating that here, i am trying to set things proper be4 I leave for Brunei, and dere she jus mus make things difficult. Den worst, everyone, thinks i am in the wrong. Everyone. Its as if ever since I gone into the army, I've become an outsider all of a sudden. Its liek I no longer "family".

Being a Guy sux, u have to take all the shit and the blame, all a Girl need to do is acty helpless and she gets all the attention and sympathy. I swear, in my nxt life, I mus be a Girl. Guy= ALways in the Wrong, Girl = Helpless; always in the right.

Maybe I shld had signed on navy, sail away, home all over the place. What is home? a material thing, or where tyhe heart belongs?

-ShawnZ-